Zombie Protests

"What do we want?"

"Braaaaaaaains!"

"No, guys. We're want equal rights for zombies. Let's try this again. What do we want?"

"Braaaaaaaains!"

*sigh*

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Imperfect Perfection

Imperfect Rose by *Finire on deviantART

A while ago I had posted this picture, and then forgot about it. Recently I have been thinking about the rose though. Sadly, now the season for that rose has passed, and it is no longer. But the picture that I had taken preserved the sight, and feelings that this rose brings inside of me.

Imperfect Perfection.

At first I had simply seen this rose as a flower, beautiful, but marred. Contemplation on this rose though, has shown me that I need to think past where I have before. The flower has its damages, holes, and blemishes. But I look at it, and know that I have the same things in my life. Writing this now some of my faults come to mind, but to save this for going on 10 pages, I won't list them.

I have come to the decision though, that I need to start accepting people for who they are, there imperfect selves. On top of all of that, I need to come to accept myself more as who I am, with my faults. I know I must continue to strive to become a better person each day, but while I'm at it, I need to let myself accept me for who I am.

Now, Speaking of life changes, I ask that each of you who read this keep me in mind over the next several weeks as I will be hoping to hear back from a job. I have recieved the full support of my amazing boss for this new job, now I just need to convince the people that do the hiring that I am the best for the job.

Do you...

For a while now I have been absent from posting anything in my blog. Originally I had planned my next post to be a collaboration of the poetry I have written over the years. Recently I decided not to do this as the mix of emotion in one post, and the remembrance of some old feelings was not what I desired. So now again my twisted pattern of thought brought me to yet another topic. This somewhat relates to what I have been posting recently.

"Do you swear to tell the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth, so help you god."

Such a simple question, such a simple answer. The normal and accepted response to this question is "I do". But now I sit here and wonder, people have been sent to the electric chair, lethal injection, and the gas chamber for what people have said while under this oath. I wonder exactly what this is supposed to mean. Why is it that in a world of religious freedom and supposed separation of church and state, that we have people swear there testimonies under a specific belief.

Were I to take the oath in front of a court, my word in question, what would I respond? A quick search on the web showed that this itself may be a hot topic. Out of the first 30 results that showed up I found most of them were about what "heathens and atheists" would do if asked this question. In a way I guess I should have expected this, but I do not consider myself a heathen, and I know that I am not an atheist. I do have my own beliefs. But my search did turn up more than just a found hatred of those with different beliefs.

Those that do not believe in that certain god, can affirm to the truth.

"You do affirm that all the testimony you are about to give in the case now before the Court will be the truth, and nothing but the truth; this you do affirm under the pains and penalties of perjury?"

Again the common answer would be "I do". While I am glad to see that an alternate has been made, I am sad at the same time to see that it has not been made the standard. Even after this affirmation is decided upon, the judge apparently has to warn the jury and those viewing the case that this affirmation is legal and valid. One day I imagine that we will live in a world where religious freedom is a whole truth, but I know that day is not today. I know that the concept is there, I watch sci-fi. Most shows that talk about the future, about the human race as a whole cooperating, do not mention religion at all.

Another rant, another day. Sometimes I may get slightly carried away. As for how I am doing myself, I guess that I just need to get up and out a little more. Thank you Willow, I know you haven't heard from me, I promise an email soon.

Accident

So it's not every morning that I get as suprised as I was this morning... Most people that know me, know that I have to work one weekend a month ontop of my usual work schedule. This was that weekend.

The usual happened at home, My alarm went off... I hit the snooze button 3 or 4 times before deciding that I really did have to get up. I dragged myself slowly out of bed, and made my way to the shower for my morning routine. The water woke me, and brought me out of my trance that I had so earned from staying up so late the night before. I was now officially awake.

I pulled on my uniform, happy that this early I didn't have to pick out clothes, and got ready to leave for work. Looking at the clock I could see that I was already a couple of minutes behind where I wanted to be, but that wasn't any worry. I had planned the night before to be running behind in the morning, So I guess I actually planned to be on time. I grabbed my GPS off of my desk, because I don't drive anywhere over 10 minutes away without it as I would be without my current book. One that I was just starting to listen to this morning. "The Pillars of the Earth" by Ken Follett. Now that I'm settled in my car, it is time to begin my usual 45 minute ride to work.

So I start the introduction to the book, driving the route that I really do drive almost every day, when I get suprised. If I wasn't awake before, I was now. A deer, I'm not too sure if it was a buck or doe, jumped out of the woods as I passed, and into my car. Specifically it jumped into the front passengers corner of my car. I was going about 35 Mph when I hit it, and by the damage done to my car when I pulled over, I didn't see how that deer would have lived through the matter. And secretly... I had hoped it didn't.

I know it's sinister of me to hope that it didn't live through it, but looking back on it an hour later as I write this, it would be better for the deer if it had died on the spot. It will die now, but unfortunatly somewhere far into the woods from internal bleeding. Apart from the deer's fate, was mine. Now I'm sitting here with a car that has an impressive amount of damage done to it from a simple animal. I just finished filing a claim with the insurrance company online, and am now waiting to hear from them. I think I'm taking off work today, and probably tommorow while I get the car looked at by a claim agent...

Suprised

So I wake up this morning, and check my comments to my blog. I had planned on posting when I got to work, only to find that they had finally put a filter on our network. It's one that I will get around on Monday, but it did throw me off a bit.

The surprised part is when I realised that I had more readers than I had thought. I don't mind, and in short response to the comment. I read, a lot. I have more books on my shelf that I have read through so far, than most people have read in a lifetime. It's a curse of mine, I love reading... My love for reading all started when I first had a love for learning.

I remember the days when I was a little boy hiding in my room. I wouldn't sleep because I was in the middle of a book that had fascinated me. Most kids that time wouldn't sleep because they had a game they were playing with, or something of the sort. I lost myself in books. I lived in worlds that were not mine, but they became mine. Everyone there knew me, to the extent the stories allowed at least. To this day I still find myself getting lost in books. Lately it's been the "Incarnations of Immortality" series. I'm on the sixth and final book right now. My only disappointment is that after I finish, I have to find another series to read.

So I've been kinda all over the place with this post, but that's just the state my mind is in right now...

Contrasts of life

It's not often that I get to stand beside myself, today I decided it was time to do so. Anyone that has bothered to spend the time sorting through my pages of blog entries know several things about me. You know who I am...

I stand myself side by side, my life streams intermingle.

The cloak is amazingly comfortable...

I might even go as far to say that I look dashingly amazing...

My thanks to Willow, whose craft with cloth is unlike I have ever seen. The robe and cloak that she made for me are strictly amazing.

The long wait...

For those readers of my blog, I appoligize for not posting recently. With the return from my trips, I have become slightly lazy... With the weekend of July 4th, I have become extremely lazy... And then of course, I broke my computer...

***Warning***
***Geek Alert***
***Pictures non-related may be found at the bottom of this post***

A so called upgrade... I installed lots of extra RAM into my computer in order to try something, which I probably should have tested well before I put it into practice. As for those of you who pay attention, I have been playing with Microsoft Virtual PC. With the release of Windows Server 2008 and the final release of Hyper-V (Microsofts server virtualization tool) I thought that I would go that route, being server 2008 should be able to manage memory more efficiantly. I was correct in that, and to be honest, Hyper-V worked like a charm, and did exactly what it was supposed to... Virtualize machines that were able to inter-network and run servers.

That however is where the usefulness of it had stopped. I do alot of work on my computers, and that has become my primary use on them. But I will probably never give up this little habbit I have for gaming. Windows Server 2008 supports alot, but it still remains a server. Not meant for graphics. So while I had installed Server 08 on my machine, I had figured that like Virtual PC I would be able to virtualize machines capable of decent graphics. I was horribly wrong. Hyper-V has just about no graphics considerations made for the purpose of anything near gaming. The best it could give me? Virtualized machines that would only run on a 4:3 screen, not a 16:9 screen and capable of a maximum 16 bit color. Ontop of that it did not utilize my graphics card, but a software based graphics processor... Completely nullifying my prized GeForce 8800 graphics card.

"Instincts are rarely pure instinct - they're the distillation of knowledge and experience over many years into finely tuned behaviour."

So with this problem sitting in my lap, I had to come up with a solution. It was simple, but it meant putting Vista back onto my computer. Don't get me wrong, I have no hatred towards Vista... It works very well for me. But I had upgraded my computer to 8 GBs of DDRII PC 8500 RAM (1066Mhz). Previously I only had a 32 bit version of Vista installed. Thankfully I had the forsight to create a disk with the 64 Bit version on it before my first format. With disk in hand, I formatted my system again. I'll be the first to say, over the years Microsoft has made the install process easier and easier. Almost pain free... But no matter how pain free something is, you don't want to have to do it several times in one day. This was the 3rd operating systems that I was setting up that day. It installed like the champ it was, then I was again found lazy in taking forever to do the simple things... Import favorites.. etc.


So with all that said, here are the promised pictures...

Such a beautiful red rose...


Aww... Look, it's a busy bee...


So Vibrant in color...


Aww... I think he know's I'm there...


And that's it for today... More may come tommorow...